What a journey..... so far

It's been a good while since i wrote on here. Between working 10 hour days for 7 days straight for 21 days or so at a time between off days, when we r lucky enough to get an off day! anyways, not to complain i'm very thankful for my job and that I'm very blessed to have a job and to be making a living for me and my family. It has been close to 3 months since our little eli went to heaven. It has been an interesting journey since then. It seems like it has been a year crammed into these last 3 months time. I have experienced my personality change for about a few weeks or a month or so after it. Then my personality changed back to what it usually is, not the exact same one as before Aug. 19th. That may sound like an insane notion, but it happened. I've read that grief ebbs and flows in books that we got from the funeral home, but i have figured out in this journey that my griefs comes in like the tides. All can be quiet and calm on the beach and then all of a sudden here comes the wave and then it goes back out to the ocean again. There was one day that i thought about something and got me to thinking about eli and just 2 hours after that i couldn't even remember what the thought process was that got me all stirred up. God bless!