A different world!!

It hasn't even been 2 whole weeks since our little eli weston went to heaven. It's a different world now! It seems like time has just slowed down to a snail's pace. When we were all kids it seemed like no matter how hard we tried, we couldn't get time to go any faster than sand molecules through an hourglass. it's just amazing how much of an impact all this has had since then!! My sense of reality and time has changed quite a bit. It just seems like since i've been back at work that time seems to drag by, just as slow as it can get. In some ways, I wish that i could just wave a wand and everything be the way it was supposed to turn out as of 2 weeks from tomorrow. But in another way, I wouldn't have our little eli exist on this earth for a very short time, just to suffer from some disorder or disease and be hooked up to all sorts of machines keeping his little body alive and breathing for him. I can't say anything that would bring him back or make the hurt go away. well, hope everybody has a good day tomorrow!   
Matt. 5:4

First day back

Well, I just finished up my first day back to work since losing our little angel Eli Weston!! It think in the end it will be better for me to go back to work now and try and get back in the swing of what used to be a regular routine. obviously it's a world of difference now than it was before. I felt very hollow on the inside as i was going along just doing the everyday tasks that come with doing my job. My view of this world has changed since a week from last friday!!! There are things i've seen before now in certain people that i used to consider as a close member of immediate family!! I can forgive and forget things only because of God giving me the strength to do so! I just hope through all this that has happened that maybe, just maybe i could help others who might be going through the same thing!! I love my wife and daughter with all there is about me!!! I can't wait till the day when we are reunited with our little angel in heaven that is waiting on us!

My first blog ever!!!!!

Nobody in this world other than me will probably be the one to read or give a care about what i have to say on this blog or elsewhere, but here goes..... This blog is gonna be just to use as a journal for my thoughts and things like that, but not like a diary!!! I never thought I would ever have a blog page, but then again i never in my life thought that i would ever own a cell phone or any of the other things in life that i possess for this short, short time i have on this earth!!! I want to use this blog as a way to translate my thoughts onto written form to get them out of my head so that it might make me feel better in the end, but also i want to use this blog as a way to glorify my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!! I am not the best example of how a christian is to behave all the time, i am still a disciple-in-progress!!! I am not perfect, but i know the one who is and i can come to him in prayer to ask forgiveness everytime i need it!! God Bless!!!